There's a very specific reason for this site...

It describes my life in general. I spend my days trying to fit in and be 'normal'. I spend my nights dealing with the needs of my children including homework, and sibling rivalry and many of the other normal parenting things which are made that much more complex by their autism.

Having health issues on top of that just makes life more complicated and interesting.

A month ago it was gal stones. Two weeks ago it was kidney stone number one. I'm beginning to think that I've got at least one more in there if not something else.

I hate going to the doctor. No real reason other than time. I hate wasting time and for me, waiting around for the doctor is wasting time. I also have a very high tolerance for pain. So high that it freaks people out. I've sliced my toe to the bone before and barely registered that something was wrong.

Recently I've had a lot more pain. Pain that forces me to stop and pay attention. Gal stones have been the worse by far just because of how long the pain lasted. Kidney stones caused the most acute pain. It was very sudden and very distinct but it only lasted about 15 minutes. Then it felt like I had to pee for a week straight before it passed.

I'm now feeling a dull but distinct pain similar to the first kidney stone. Add a severe allergy attack plus possible sinus infection and I really feel like crap.

I'm scheduled to see a urologist on Friday. I'd rather they tell me I'm imagining it all but I'm sure it'll be worse than that.